| Stuff that I could totally relate to...
| Friday, February 11, 2005
|Something I got from April's e-mail. And I can totally relate. Read on...
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is
when you stop going along with the crowd and
start realizing that there are many things
about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren't exactly the greatest
people you have ever met, and the people you
have lost touch with are some of the most important
ones. What you don't recognize is that they are
realizing that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even
close to what you thought you would be doing, or
maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that
you are going to have to start at the bottom and
that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see
what others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realize that
you have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what
is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh
and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly,
change is the enemy and you try and cling on to
the past with dear life, but soon realize that
the past is drifting further and further away,
and there is nothing to do but stay where you
are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you
lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know
better. Or maybe you love someone but love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you know that you aren't
a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts
to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions
over and over, and talk with your friends about
the same topics because you cannot seem to make
a decision. You worry about loans, money, the
future and making a life for yourself... and
while winning the race would be great, right
now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it. We are in our best
of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out.
Something I got from tukayo's blog...
something to think about..
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."
Find a girl who calls you baby faced instead of hot or sexy, who can't stand it when you hang up on her and calls right back, who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes, who doesn't care what you look like, but what's inside counts the most, who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips, wants to be with you in public, even if you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants with the bleached jersey like always, Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy, who makes you smile just by knowing she loves you back. Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public and she still is in view of her friends, while she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always"
|posted by dyeni @ 6:37 AM
imagine What Mid-life Crisis would be like...sigh, life...